Where can someone get help for being an alcoholic when they don't believe in the message AA sends?

I live in Fremont, CA, if that helps. I don't believe in the whole 'I have a disease' garbage. If I was of a lesser intellect, then I might. I don't YEARN for alcohol, my life was shattered, and am now a single father raising 2 autistic sons. And no girl wants to come anywhere NEAR that situation. So when I put my sons to bed at the end of the night, I have nothing to do except stew over how stressful and hard my life is. Then I want to drink, if anything so I can not only sleep, but not experience the pain I have. A disease, are you KIDDING ME? When someone says they have cancer, or AIDS, there is a reaction to someone diagnosed with a real disease. I have alcoholism, kinda nowhere near the same effect. What is there out there instead of AA, like the "AA for people who can realize the AA garbage".